Saturday, October 22, 2011

I'm a Work In Progress

Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony. Wise words from M. Gandhi. Words I am trying to live by and trying to find focus with. I had a huge AH-HA moment as a parent, a mother, a wife and a person on October 13. I arrived home after being at work for way too long, it was after 5pm and my husband, G & R were all in their PJ's. If the dog had PJ's, I am sure he too, would have been wearing them. And did I hug people, say hello and snuggle my babies? No, I yelled at my husband that it was after 5pm, no one was dressed and what the hell was going on. Not me being my best self.

I didn't take into consideration that my husband had been battling a cold for two weeks, that it had rained all day and that it really didn't matter if everyone spent 22 hours in their PJ's. I stepped into the worst version of myself and performed horribly.

My husband was solid in his response, he was right after all and knew it. It took me 5 hours to apologize and a full 24 hours to process it.

A friend recently had a quote on her facebook page "I myself am made entirely of flaws stitched together with good intentions." It hit me in the face- this is me too! And for now, I'll keep moving along, remembering to look in the mirror now and again. I need to love what I see and PJ day was not it. Almost 35 years of me and I am still learning.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

What's Been Going On

Life is full. I've decided to ban the words "busy" and "tired" from my vocabulary; they are always going to be present for many months and years ahead. Insread, I'm looking at life as being full. Some days overflowing.

What the girls are up to
- learning to walk...Georgia started on September 30 and Rori followed a few days later
- exploring and crawling into and under anything and everything...gross motor skills at their finest
- filling their mouths with combined count is now 22/40, we're over half way there
- not sleeping. We're on day 15 of interrupted, horrible night lack of sleeping.

Ahhh the lack of sleep. Part of my reason for being behind on the blog, behind on life. I've realized parenting is a lot of guessing, speculating and trial and error. We never really know what is keeping them up, we guess. Is it teething? Is it learning to walk? Do we let them cry it out, snuggle them in or begin sleep training all over? Any and all of the above do not seem to work.

As if on cue, they are erupting in their cribs. Three hours after they went down. Parenting calls, blog will wait. Snuggles are next on the agenda.